It's Good News, So Why Am I Crying?

    My face is red and puffy.  My eyes are swollen.  If you saw me, you'd swear I'd just heard some horrible news.  Something like: "Target just burned down!" or "No one else volunteered, so we made you room mother!"

    But really I got a call I've been waiting for since I was diagnosed with hepatitis C in 1997-- the call that I never thought would come.

    After countless shots and pills and pokes and prods and prayers (especially prayers), I just heard that my latest test showed no traces of the virus.

    I've now been virus-free for five years, and I'm considered CURED.

    I never spent much time contemplating this day, fearing that thinking about it would prevent it from actually occurring.  However, in the back of my mind I suppose I figured the news would engender a "WOOSH" of relief and an immediate feeling of peacefulness and serenity.

    Instead, I'm just having a hard time grasping the concept that the ordeal is over.  It's like I've been carrying around a heavy suitcase full of liver trouble and now it seems so much a part of me that I'm having trouble letting it go.  Maybe I can't really believe I'm permitted to let it go.

    I haven't even made any phone calls yet-- delivering wonderful news while alternately sobbing and sniffling seems ungrateful.

    And I am very, very grateful.

Comments

[halloweenlover]

I'm so happy for you! I'm sorry I didn't see your post sooner, but congratulations! That is the best news EVER.

[Lisa (Blah Blah)]

That is fan-friggin-tastic! So happy for you!

[Cam]

It is great to hear such wonderful news!

[Lucinda]

That is wonderful, wonderful, wonderful news.

My husband had hepatitis A two years ago and even though it was not nearly as serious as C, I was worried sick about his nonfunctioning liver, his jaundice, and the myriad tests he had to undergo while they tried to figure out what was wrong with him.

I can't imagine going through these worries for five years.

Congratulations.

[Jeni]

And by smaile, I mean smile. :)

[Jeni]

Yahooey!!! Praise Jesus!!! My mom has been HepC-free for 3 years now, and my dad is on the treatment right now, so I told them about you to give them something to smaile about. Yay Yay Yay Yay!!!!

[Dollymama]

Congratulations! I am very happy for you. What a great thing.

[Laurie]

What wonderful news!!!

[Stacy - Tanner's mom]

Congratulations! As a family that deals with liver disease, I know the constant worry associated with it. We celebrate with you on your "cured" status.

[Kerri.]

Congratulations on your tremendous news. Here's to your continued good health.

- Kerri.

[Belinda]

Oh, my God (and I mean that), THANK YOU! Bless you, sweetheart. That is wonderful, wonderful news. I told you about my uncle...he's been clear for close to 10 years, now! Yaay for you!!!

[Running2Ks]

Oh my goodness! Many congratulations! I am so happy for you!

[earth girl]

I am so thrilled. My brother is getting the interferon treatment for Hep C and I can't wait for this day in his life. (choking back my fear with a pryaer as I write this.)

[Sandra Miller]

Wonderful, wonderful news! I'm choking back tears just reading your post.

[liz]

Yippee-yay-kay-yay!!!!!

I've got happy feet now! Congratulations. May your life be long and happy. May you always be as healthy as you are today.

[Busy Mom]

Yeeee Haaaahhhhh! Wonderful news!

[Lisa]

Woo hoo!!! Doing the happy dance for you. God does work wonders. Congratulations, and I agree, have a "cured" party.

[JoL]

PRAISE GOD in His blessings!!!!!!!!
Much love to you and your family. Great news travels quickly, and it made it onto the men's Bible study praises!!!!!!

[shay v.]

that's wonderful news... it will hit you even harder over the next few days, weeks, months, etc. I'm sure you're family is ecstatic with such phenomenal news. It's a marked event...you should celebrate. Have a "cured" party and live it up! Celebrate every year or, if you're conservative with celebrations, every five years! CONGRATULATIONS!